It has been at least four months since I have posted due to the birth of my new son Tucker Finnegan. What a trip! Two new babies home in less than one year is a miracle for us.
Here's a little story to brighten your day and increase your faith that there really are Infinite Possibilities, and Anything is possible.
Hubby and I had wanted children for quite some time. We had tried, and failed. We were not yet aware of the power we possessed.
In January of 2008 we became pregnant and lost the baby to miscarriage. We had lost two before that (don't worry, this does become a happy story). We knew that getting pregnant was difficult because I had been 'diagnosed' with polycystic ovarian syndrome and adenomyosis (I didn't know that I could heal my own body yet). After years of trying, and constant "you just can't have children" responses from doctors, we decided to do a little soul searching. I decided that I would use all of my positive energy to manifest a healthy baby girl by January 2009. I asked for NOTHING else big at this time...
In my journal for 2008 I wrote, "I am so happy and grateful now that I have a beautiful, healthy, lively baby girl by January 2009. I am open to allowing this baby girl into my life by January 2008." I visualized her bright smile, giggles, and sent love out into the universe. Then I let go of the idea. I told my doctor about this and she told me I had little hope, but every little bit helped at this point. Anyone out there who really wants a baby but has been unable to have one knows just how hard it is to "let go" of the desire for a baby to stay in the flow of the universe... but I managed to do it. I provided myself with distractions. The universe dropped my dream car, to my exact specifications, in my lap; a brand new "I'm a hot young executive life coach" candy apple red convertible with black leather interior, and black drop top. At half price! I started my masters degree in counseling which I had been wanting to do since graduating from college 'forever ago'. I moved into a fancy uptown apartment. My husband bought a Denali with 22" rims. We did everything we had wanted to do when trying for children but had decided to avoid doing because we wanted to "be prepared". Travel to Reno, hiking, eating out, wine tasting, beer tasting...you name it. We were definitely letting go.
We purchased the Denali which was his dream "I'm not a dad" vehicle with all the bells and whistles. I had a wonderful case of heartburn that entire day...figured it was the fast food I should have traded in for something nourishing for my body. Three days later I had a nagging feeling to take a pregnancy test. Big Fat Positive. I came down with a horrible case of the "hows" wondering how I was going to keep from miscarrying this time, and finding the joy in the situation. I gave it up to the universe asking for some divine guidance. "Whether or not it has been difficult for me in the past to carry a baby to viability, I choose to believe that I can carry this baby and have a healthy baby. I am open to receiving answers on what to do to keep this baby." Later that same day one of my clients mentioned out of the blue that she had been diagnosed with luteal phase defect. She did not know of my history or that I was pregnant. She explained that it caused miscarriage. I called my doctor who ran some immediate tests, and we determined that I had it. Giving it up to the universe made the answer come within hours. Needless to say Addy, although born very early, is happy, healthy, and WAS born on my favorite day of the year, election day in 2008! Before January 2009. We brought her home from the NICU where she did very well in February 2009. Baby #1 in 2009.
Apparently we had sent out so much positive energy that we became pregnant only four months after she was born. Tucker Finnegan was born December 2009. This time there were no complications. Baby #2 in 2009. My husband had been hoping for twins all along, and as far as we are concerned, he got them! THAT IS NOT THE AMAZING PART THOUGH...
Polycystic ovarian syndrome and adenomyosis both have no "cure". According to my doctor, who is shocked and amazed, you can't just "make them dissapear". I had been going into alpha and visualizing my doctor saying that she found perfectly healthy ovaries and a perfectly healthy uterus. I had been reprogramming my mind with NLP and shifting my paradigm about having babies from negative to positive. When I became pregnant with Tucker (to our shock and joy) the doctor said that the Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome and the Adenomyosis were GONE. Completely gone. Still no sign of them showing back up either...I attribute them to past anger and sadness that I've since released...
Remember, we are infinitely powerful beyond even our wildest imagination...
Today I am grateful for my two absolutely beautiful, perfect, loving children, and for the gift they gave me as their mother, and for my wonderful amazing husband who stuck with me through it all...including two babies in one year. I love you all!
Wishing you all the love in the world. And abundance too!
Diane Boerstler
Life Coach and Speaker
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